I used to lose myself to please everyone now I start to lose everyone while I am finding me. I do apologize here and forgive me that I cannot turn to the way you want me to be. I am not the super woman I am just the human, I need to light up my world when other comes to lift me up. I never compare myself to someone else because I know there is no comparison between the sun and the moon they shine when it’s their time. I just want to be better than the person I was yesterday only. Some people they can only see the cover of the books, they never care the meaning inside of the books. Being [Raise Good] it doesn’t mean you don’t drink, smoke or inked [Tattoo] it’s about how you treat people, I have seen most of gossips go to the church every weekend when the people who covered by tattoos are going to help other and volunteers. Be yourself, makes yourself happy coz you are the one who takes the responsibility of your happiness, when no one else has the business to do it. And you are not born to make people understand you, don’t waste your time. How can you expect someone will make you happy when they are struggling hard to make themselves happy like you expect someone to lost weight for you it never happen. I like dressing sexy, short it doesn’t mean I want to get attract from the opposite sex, I just love the way of my body. Well, if we are talking about culture okay I probably out of that but looks another side this is my life, can I just do what makes me happy? I have been trying a decade just to make people around me happy, and be the way they want, I was so stupid. They were telling me don’t do this don’t do that when they were doing it behind. Now I just realized that when people really love you they will love the way you are, accepted all the good and bad and not trying to change the way you are. Be yourself, you don’t have to drama, pretend to be someone else [You is You] if they are not happy with the way you are, you don’t have to care, and you don’t need their approval to be yourself anyway. Stays positives always and live the life you want, the most stress is to deal with the idiots. Don’t let someone own your life; you are the master of your life. If you were not happy yesterday do something difference today to make you happy, it’s never too late, don’t stay stuck. Being yourself, it’s probably the tough thing, and I can understand it’s not the easy thing that you can say oh just be yourself…………… you have to take a lot of lessons, life experience, train your mind, I am now 30s in the stage of life that I don’t care anymore if people wants to stay I am fine, if people wants to go I am fine too, if people really wants to spend time with you they will never leave you at the first place, be blessing and content with your own company. I used to be a person that people telling me what to do, that is not me. My mom used to push me hard in the way I don’t want to be, she wanted me to be like other girls because we are under culture, conservative, she said you should dress well, no hair coloring, no short, no hang out, no speaking loud, no alcohol so on. She wants me to be the same routine way like our neighbor kids, looking for decent guy to marry and having kids. It sucks when things come to routine is deadly to me. I have been trying to convince and make she understand my circumstances, I said mom I know you love me, I know you care me and I know you are doing everything for me, but have you ever asking me, Am I happy to be the way you want me to be??? She responded [Are you happy now]? I told her I am not happy at all to be not myself, you just caring too much what people said and not happy with our family but you never think about my feeling, she was responded with the emotional sound I never know that you are not happy with what I want you to do girl, [I am sorry] mom said. From now on do what you want to do, what makes you happy and be yourself girl. Sound like I am the worst daughter in the world, and I admitted that if I don’t go to the hell, there is no one will right? I just fighting hard to be myself only nothing is worse than try to be someone else not yourself. Now I am very happy when she understands and stands with me. Be yourself, listen to other but don’t lose your inner voices, trust yourself, love yourself, be confidence, be motivate when no one will do. Remember that you are the one is going to spend the rest of life with is always YOU. I am sick of this social that people love to judge may be [THINK] is the hardest stuff. Why people just more appreciate and less judges the world needs it. I confessed that I used to judge people, but when I came to close and studied about everyone situations I started to understand why don’t we just leave the way they are, they might be have their rough life to deal with, not everyone understands that. People has the business to do what makes them happy and you have your business to do what makes you happy too, so don’t judge, stay positive and understand everything happens for a reason. Whenever, whatever, wherever [Be Yourself] be true to yourself and not being afraid to be who you are. Being you is [Self-Respect].
